random rambling: trust your gut.

If there is one thing in my life that has never ever failed me it’s my gut. There has been many times where I have failed to trust my gut feelings and it has always blown up in my face. It could be little things to huge decisions but my insides always know what’s best.

A huge example of this has to do with my health. When I was in high school I struggled with some serious thyroid issues. I was in and out of the hospital all that time. I had to go get my blood work every two weeks to make sure I was regulated. Every few months I would have an allergic reaction to the medication I was one and we would have to start all over again with something new. It was getting very old and kind of scary. There were concerns of developing cancer cells as well as my thyroid over reacting and pretty much frying me from the inside out. I was sent to a specialist. The first thing they talked about was radiation; they wanted to kill my thyroid. I quickly refused treatment. It didn’t feel right, it didn’t sound right to me. Something was telling me “NO! STOP! DON’T DO IT!” After I told them no they refused to continue treatment with me. I was too high of a risk to just have on medication. The doctors told me I probably wouldn’t live too long without serious medication or surgery. I stood by my decision. It’s not every day you hear from a doctor that you’re going to die in a few years but I didn’t care. I didn’t believe it was true.

Here I am at 26 years old and I’m living a full and healthy life. After some time past my thyroid started to regulate itself. I don’t need medication and I’m feeling pretty good. Some of my symptoms hung around. My hands still shake like a leaf, I still bruise like I have anemia, and my thyroid is still enlarged but there are no real issues. If I would have listened to the doctor I would have had to take a pill everyday for the rest of my life to supplement my thyroid hormone, doesn’t sound like fun to me. I’m not saying refusing treatment from a doctor is for everyone, by all means! There is a good reason why we have doctors to help and treat us when our bodies just can’t anymore. It’s just an example of when my gut feelings really came into play.

I’m so thankful for that little voice helping me and guiding me. It could be a job decision or a big move; I say follow your insides first. Sometimes I think our heads really can get in the way. Do you listen to your gut? Where has it lead you?